Tell me, how do you like to be loved?
Sexually
romantically
emotionally
platonically?
How do you wish your lover would love you?
How do you wish your ex had loved you?
How does your fantasy of your ideal lover, love you?
Is that the way that you’re loving yourself?
Right now?
Most days?
Ever?
If you were the one who loved you most, would you feel honored, desired, and adored?
Seen, protected, and accepted?
Important, supported, and celebrated?
Or would you feel neglected, dismissed?
Judged, criticized, betrayed?
Unwanted, ugly, not good enough, and straight up abused?
Would you in a heartbeat, break up with or run away from you?
Are you hoping to be seen
hoping to be held
hoping to be validated
hoping to be loved?
Waiting and waiting and waiting
for the one?
Forgetting
that you are
the one
and only one?
What if you ended
the eternal disappointment
and remembered
your way home?
What if you looked in the mirror
and saw your beauty
in all of the ways
that no man, woman, or magazine ever has?
What if you tenderly caressed
your living body
worshipped every curve
and pleasured you as deeply
as you truly deserve?
What if you “liked” every single breath
moment, experience, and thought
without needing to share it
with anyone else?
What if you touched your wounds and your scars
let yourself fall apart
let yourself be imperfect and ugly
and instead of distracting yourself
or punishing yourself
or fixing yourself
or pretending it away,
you held yourself and said
“I love you, and I will always be here for you, no matter what.”
…Even when you don’t know how.
What if you gave yourself permission
to feel everything
To be as you are
Exactly as you are
Enough.
More than enough.
Nothing to shift, nothing to fix.
Accepted.
Allowed.
What if you looked inside
and saw the light
that’s always
been waiting
for you
to be found.
Loving yourself like you’ve never been loved isn’t easy.
But it is damn simple.
Look at every way in your life
that you didn’t receive the love that you needed
and love yourself like you wish you had been loved
right now.
Look at every way in your life
that you long to be loved
and make the commitment to stop whatever you’re doing
and love yourself like that
right now.
Easier to say
more difficult to do
but nothing is more important
than learning to love you.
This is so beautiful Camille! Thank you for this.
Thank you so much <3 🙂
Thanks for all the inspiration and the honesty.
Your blog is one of my favourites. I had some amazing years travelling, but have been struggling lately. Trying to save up money for a yoga teaching course, while not being sure of anything else anymore. Your posts always remind myself to trust, to love myself, to accept any feelings that might arise. I am so glad you are sharing your journey with us. Thank you so much.
Christine, thank you for your comment I appreciate you so dearly. It is such a gift to be able to share this journey with you. May we all remember more and more how to love ourselves as much as we truly deserve <3 I love you!
You area beautiful soul and I hope to meet you one day on one of your retreats! I appreciate you writing and posting this. I read it often to remember how to love myself. I too have had similar heartbreak in my life and I’m really happy I found your blog because it seems we are much alike and I hope to do the things you are doing in the near future! <3 Maybe we'll travel together!
Megan I am so grateful for your comment. You are so beautiful and I feel very very blessed to support you the best way I can. You’re welcome for the love you receive through my words, it is an honor. Sending you mucho amor mi hermana <3 Would love to connect with you on a retreat xx
Absolutely. I would love to meet you! I will let you know in the future when joining you for a retreat in PV might be possible. Meanwhile I look forward to reading your posts. Sending love back to you, my Aquarius friend!
<3 <3 <3
Hi Camille,
Not sure if you remember me, maybe not my name but you spent time at what we called Camp Pamela one summer when you lived at Ivymount Apartments. I took care of you and your sister Madeleine plus a girl named Stephanie from Sao Paulo, I think, and her brother, and a couple of other Ivymount kids. I still think of that summer, and all of you kids, with great fondness. You were strong and clear back then, and it seems like you haven’t changed much! I enjoy reading your blog and seeing what you’re doing with your life. I still live at Ivymount, if you can believe it, in an apartment that faces the woods. I work at a nonprofit and I also teach qigong, so I’m kind of sympatica with your yoga teaching. Just wanted to connect….love, Pamela
Wow Pamela this is truly incredible!!! Thank you for reaching out!! Honestly I don’t remember the camp… but I do remember having lots of fun with my sister, friends, and cousins and supportive adults too tall for me to remember their faces haha at Ivymount 🙂 I’m so amazed and grateful that you read my blog, so beautiful to be witnessed by you throughout different stages of life. How did you find me?? <3
Hola! Buenos dias. Soy de Los Estados Unidos. I speak very little Spanish. 😁 My husband was offered a job in Puerto Viejo and we have visited CR before, but not this area. I am wondering if this area is a good place for a family with small children (4&6) and if living accommodations are safe? We would be travelling with a small budget. Your advise would be appreciated, thanks. -Allie
Hi Allie 🙂 As far as safety, I recommend reading this article…
https://www.thisamericangirl.com/2014/10/06/puerto-viejo-safe/
I have lots of friends with small kids living here and there is a really nice community for families and even a beautiful conscious education primary school 🙂 That said it’s definitely not EASY living here especially with kids. Not easy to get around, not easy with the weather, not easy to buy things, etc. The ocean can get really rough certain times of year, the weather can be super intense, the jungle is super intense with insects, snakes, etc, and crime does happen. Kids are not the target, robbery, break ins, and rape are more common. It’s also pretty expensive here, and very challenging to find affordable housing these days. Expect to spend about the same as what you would in the USA to be completely honest… especially with food.
That said, it is one of the most magical, beautiful places in the entire world <3 So, for me it's all worth it!
Hope that helps!