I don’t want to stay

in another cluttered

noisy dorm room.




I don’t want to ask

and answer

the same tired questions:




“Where have you been,”

“Where are you going,”

“Where are you from?”




I don’t want to interact

on a level

of continuous superficiality

with people

who I will never see again.




I don’t want to drink from a bucket

dance with teenagers

or sleep with earplugs.




I don’t want to track every penny

haggle over a dollar

and lose opportunities

because I’m too poor.




Maybe, I don’t want to be a backpacker anymore.




I want to experience a place

without the limitations of the cost;

luxury cocktails on a rooftop

and dollar noodles in the street.




I want to take hot showers

and sleep in real beds

then walk in dirty dusty markets

and lay awake on overnight trains.




I want silence and isolation

I want quiet and calm

so I can process and express

the chaos I just saw.




I want to spend my time

with people

who inspire me to do more

who really want to know me

and be known in return.




I want to create

a sustainable business

that supports me and those I love

without the destruction of consumerism

without the stress of the modern world.




I want the comfort of knowing

it’s ok for me to complain or to cry

without losing my ability

to soothe myself from the inside.




I want to give back

to the places where I visit

change their lives like they changed mine

instead of constantly searching

for how I can survive.




I want the chance to find love

to have a relationship

perhaps even a home;

without the monotony of normalcy

the boredom of what I’ve known.




Maybe I’m asking for too much

maybe I sound spoiled

but if I’m being real

I want a life with everything




 I want to have it all.


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Hello beautiful soul, 

In August 2018 I stopped blogging as This American Girl. Six years ago I started this blog with a simple desire to share my heart and ended up creating a revolution among millions of free spirits wanting something greater for their lives. And now, it's time to keep growing together. If you want to take a quantum leap in what you can create in your reality, I invite you to join The Freedom Tribe, where I share all of my guidance for the freedom lifestyle. Then, hop over to my new website where I'm sharing my new message and brand. Thank you for your interest and investment in This American Girl, whether today or for many years. Wishing you a bright and beautiful continuation of your journey. 

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