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My spirits lifted when I touched down in the land of smiles.


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At immigration I was offered a stamp and a welcoming “sah-wah-dee-kah!”

Tour desks and workers eagerly waited to lend a helping hand.

Bus drivers, street vendors, bystanders all spoke English?!?!




The culture appeared happy, open, and free.


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Friendly travelers offered invitations and headed in packs for Khaosan Road

yet one turn down a small street revealed a charming, local world.


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A woman selling young coconuts eagerly taught me Thai.

She beamed each day I stopped by.


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The ornate temples humbled me

they were far more grandiose than I could believe.


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In Thailand I began to remember what all of this was for.

Why I came to Southeast Asia.

Why I travel at all.


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My heart ached less for Costa Rica.

Looking at the beauty around me, for the first time since I departed, I honestly did not miss it at all.


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I began wonder… could Thailand in fact be too good to be true?

The deeper I looked, the more truth I saw.


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If Vietnam displays its wounds like a proud war vet

perhaps Thailand conceals its darkness behind gilded temples

or beneath pure white sand.


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The grit can be found in back alleys with prostitutes and “ping pong”.


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Kind strangers become master scammers whose smiles turn aggressive when payment is declined.


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Elephants in the jungle are not revered, but paraded like puppets in a show.


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Majestic tigers laze with monks, are snuggled by tourists, laying docile from all the drugs.


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The more time I spend here, the more shady corners I find.


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And in this place that first felt so easy, difficulties within me have begun to arise.

I am reintroduced to sides of myself I thought I left behind.


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Yet acknowledging these realities has not made me disenchanted with my world.


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I see the beauty and the ugliness

in Thailand and in me

I continue to love them both regardlessly.


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Our facets and our dimples only add to our intrigue.


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Because I know that to find balance we need yin and yang.


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For it is only when we know darkness that we can truly see the light.


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