colombia sunset

 

What is it

that makes you feel

secure?

 

puerto viejo sunset

 

Is it knowing that you have a roof to reside under?

 

Is it accumulating green paper into a vault in case one day you need it?

 

Is it spending your day within the walls of the corner office?

 

little corn island sunset

 

Is it having someone to come home to

someone who knows you

and loves you

even if you snore, wear sweatpants, throw tantrums, and hog the bed?

 

seattle sunset

 

If you had no place to live

 

owned nothing but a backpack, an antique rug, and a pair of snakeskin shoes

 

watched pennies drown from your modest account

 

worked jobs as fleeting as shooting stars

 

and hadn’t had a relationship in years

 

pavones costa rica sunset

 

Would you feel vulnerable?

Would you feel empty?

Would you feel insecure?

 

colombia sunset

 

That home could be foreclosed

burned

shattered by vibrations from the ground.

 

lincoln park sunset

 

Your bank could disintegrate in one afternoon

sending your perfect stacks into the ether.

 

costa rica sunset

 

Your office could be revoked

no matter your dedication

no matter your drive.

 

santa teresa sunset

 

And that person who loves you

might leave you

sometimes without even wanting to.

 

Pacific Northwest sunset

 

What if all that belonged to you was yourself?

 

costa rica sunset

 

Your only role was to live?

 

nosara sunset

 

The one institution was the earth?

 

colombia sunset

 

Your relationships existed

in the moments when they happened

instead of forced to forever endure?

 

airplane sunset

 

Is it actually our belongings

our roles

our institutions

and our relationships that make us secure?

 

manuel antonio sunset

 

The less belongings I have and the less I have to belong to

the more I learn the ever changing truth about myself

and the subjective, reflective truth of this world.

 

nosara sunset

 

Perhaps with nothing

I am closer to security

than I have ever actually been.

 

puerto viejo sunset

 

Relying only on the fact

that every time I inhale

I exhale

 

osa peninsula sunset

 

and every day the sun rises

it also sets.

 

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In August 2018 I stopped blogging as This American Girl. You can now find me at Camillewillemain.com where I'm sharing my retreats and courses.
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