Goodbye Puerto Viejo - This American Girl

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When you live like a nomad

the world around you

is continuously in flux.


It’s part of why I love to travel.


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Stimulating unfamiliarity.

Liberation in exploration.


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But one of the hardships of travel

is learning to let go.


Learning to say goodbye.


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I wave to my loving family

after short visits

watching their faces disappear

behind the glared glass doors

stretching my heartstrings

beyond security, borders, and seas.


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I meet amazing people

form deep connections

but refrain from attachment

knowing and accepting

that I may never see them again.


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Saying goodbye

is a skill I have cultivated

to make this lifestyle possible.


To allow myself to feel free.


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But sitting here in the dark

packing the last of my belongings

I feel overcome with sadness.


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After spending the last two and half months in Puerto Viejo

I am moving again.

I am traveling again.


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I feel afraid of what is next.

I feel unsure of the fate of my own future.


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Wait, isn’t that what I love about travel in the first place?

The liberating uncertainty of it all?


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So sitting here

feeling conflicted about saying goodbye

makes me feel weak.

Makes me feel dependent.


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But perhaps it just means that I care.

That I let down my guard enough to become attached.


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Could that be so bad?


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Can I be an adventure-loving drifter

experiencing the pleasure and thrill of the world


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and also a deeply rooted nester

active in community, friendship, and love?


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Can I, like you, be and do anything that I want?

Live any way that I want?


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Of course I can.


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Today I am choosing to be back on the road.

I am choosing to leave Puerto Viejo behind.


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But I feel secure in also knowing

that I can always always always choose (as I often do)

to go back to my comfort, my community, my home.


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Hello beautiful soul,
In August 2018 I stopped blogging as This American Girl. You can continue the journey with us over at Earth Daughters where we walk the sacred path of feminine awakening. Will love to see you there if it speaks to you.
With love, Camille