I have always been someone who loves making lists.
Tracking the many tasks I need to complete
crossing items off of the list with a feeling of satisfaction
knowing what I have accomplished.
I remember making lists
of projects to finish for clients
errands to run in neighborhoods all over town
people to call, to email, to meet
social events to schedule.
if something was not on the list
it never got done.
In the process of constantly redefining my routine
on the road and in this little Caribbean jungle town
I have begun to truly examine the things I once thought
I needed “to do”
and began to notice
that the tasks and the busyness of the world around me
prevented me from focusing on what truly mattered.
My world inside that illustrates the world I see outside.
Do you make lists
of the things
that you need “to do”?
The mundane tasks
that demand your attention
because they simply must be done?
Wash the laundry
make the bed
take out the recycling
paint the upstairs bathroom
finish your weekly report.
Or perhaps your lists go a little deeper.
Share a nourishing meal with the people that you love.
Stretch in the morning and move your legs in stride with your breath.
Lend your hand to the community around you.
Offer attention to the feet that carry and support you.
But do you ever consider
the things that you need
that are truly inside?
Do you ever make a list
when you need
To regulate your breathing?
To let go of your past pain and resentments?
To release your fear of your future?
To reorganize your life into a routine that brings you bliss?
To connect deeper with your personal dharma?
To remember why you are here on this Earth?
Because let me tell you a secret
you do not exist
to purchase toilet paper at Target
nor to track sales leads for a Fortune 500 company
nor to update your status on Facebook
nor to do dishes, sweep, and scrub.
You exist TO DO so much more.
But do you ever become
with the mundane tasks
that the internal duties
the life changing missions
never even make the list?
What if today, on this glorious sunny summer Monday
instead of a to do list of chores
you made a to do list of intentions?
A list that allows you to check in with yourself
to remember who you want to be
and what life you want to live
even if just for today?
How could you focus a little less on the world that surrounds you
and a little more on the world within you?
Today, I will be making my “to do”.