Isla Carenero Bocas

 

Born and raised in Seattle, Washington one might expect I’d be accustomed to the rain.

Greeting each gray morning in a sophisticated trench

sporting shades to combat the blindingly white overcast sky

stepping into rubber wellies to keep my thick wool socks dry.

 

Isla Carenero Bocas

 

And while I lived that way

for the better part of my life

I never liked it.

 

Bocas del Toro

 

In the summer months

I was the first to wear shorts and espadrilles even if I froze in the shade.

Ducked out of work early if temperatures exceeded 70 degrees.

Refused to eat in restaurants without patios or lakefront views.

Spent every moment I could bathing in the intermittent sunshine the sky afforded me.

 

Bocas del Toro

 

In fact I have been told that I love the sun

more than anyone on earth.

 

Isla Carenero Bocas

 

But somehow, I can never quite seem to escape the rain.

 

Playa Cocles

 

I’ve waded flooded muddy streets in Mexico

hidden in museums in Paris

stood under the eaves of monuments in Rome

headed to the hills during monsoons on Oahu

 

Isla Carenero

 

swam in the ocean under storms in Costa Rica

eaten soggy street food in drizzly London

waited out the rain in beachside bars in Belize

and island hopped under a protective parka in Bocas del Toro

 

Playa Cocles

 

Now, as I write this, from Puerto Viejo

I am staring at the jungle between drops of rain.

It started the day I arrived

and almost one week later

has ceased to stop.

 

Isla Carenero

 

Trucks spray mud puddles onto my bare legs as I peddle by on my bicycle.

My clothes, my towels, my books just won’t dry.

The beach walk I took yesterday became a rescue mission when I found myself submerged in a river that flooded the shore.

And most importantly

I have lost my tan.

 

Playa Cocles

 

What do you do

when the sun

won’t shine?

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

Outside.

Inside.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

When the memories of days that seemed like eternal summers

shine so bright in your mind you can almost feel the warmth

yet you just can’t channel the light.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

When you want more than anything

to have the easy happiness

that comes with the sun

but are consumed with the heaviness

of the clouds.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

Instead of sulking

of hoping

of waiting

for the sun

 

Manzanillo

 

what if you found

the beauty

the growth

the peace

in the rain?

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

Because rain fills our oceans and rivers

creating waves to ride and pools to swim.

 

Manzanillo

 

Rain seeps deep into the ground

making the jungle lush and green

the trees strong and tall

the flowers soft and open.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

Rain cleans and purifies all that it touches.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

Rain sustains life.

 

Isla Carenero Cocles

 

So if the world around you is shrouded in clouds

or your heart and soul are caught in a turbulent storm

accept

appreciate

respect

this time of rain.

 

Punta Uva Puerto Viejo

 

Know that it is fueling, feeding, rejuvenating

your world

for the time

when sun decides

to shine again.

 

Punta Uva Puerto Viejo

 

And I promise

however dark your sky

one day

it will.

 

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Hello beautiful soul,
In August 2018 I stopped blogging as This American Girl. You can now find me at my new website Earth Daughters, where I'm writing about the sacred experience of the wild woman. Hope to see you there xx
Love, Camille