In one week I return to Seattle.
After exactly one year of travel.
With no home.
And right now, what I feel, is afraid.
Afraid of where I am.
Afraid of where I am going.
Afraid of returning to where I once was.
The fear is permeating my every move.
Prohibiting me from letting go and enjoying my time in this present moment.
Filling my mind with chatter.
Bringing my old friend anxiety for a visit.
And while I am still holding on
to this fear
that it is not my friend.
Why do I, why do we all
allow fear of what has happened in the past
or what has not even happened at all
the way we are living in the present?
Is it because we are scared
to be happy?
To defy our negativity with positivity?
To challenge the paradigms we have believed all of our lives with ideas that actually inspire us?
there is no can or can not.
There is no should or should not.
There is only want or do not want.
So if you want
if you truly want
then stop being afraid
Now, in this moment, I remind myself
that my fear is not serving me
and I can let it go.
I can lift myself in ways I thought impossible.
I can achieve what I feared I could never.
I can live exactly the way that I want to live.
the fear that held me back in the past
is no longer there.
What are you afraid of?
Can you let it go
that everything you want and need
If you allow it to be?
You have nothing to fear.