Do You Have it All? -

Do You Have it All?

cocles waves


Three days ago, I was mugged.

For the second time in my life.

For the first time traveling.


Don’t worry, I am more than ok. 


What I didn’t expect

was how attached

I had become

to my possessions.


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How after leaving my home

selling my car

and trading in my stilettos for havaianas


I became helpless

without my iPhone

my camera

my kindle.


playa chiquita


How after my third time living in a parasite infested humidity stricken jungle

I felt sadness about losing


a faded bikini

a dog eared mildewed novel

a bottle of sunscreen acquired in Portugal

clearly I don’t protect my skin often enough…


cocles sunset


And wondered


I care

so much




Why we all care, so much, about stuff.


sunset cocles


Is it because

we are so scared

that nothing is real

and nothing exists

unless we can touch it

see it

own it?


boat playa chiquita


That unless it lasts


in our possession

it never meant


at all?




With the understanding that no feeling

no experience

no person

lasts forever


do we look to physical objects, our possessions


to hold on

after the moment

the relationship

the dream





When we lose the object itself

do we finally feel

the actual loss?


Do we finally let go

of what we never owned

in the first place?


To allow new things to come?





I will try

to let go

of everything

except what I feel

in this moment.


cocles waves


The people I have loved.

The relationships I have endured.

The places I have been.

The dreams I have imagined.

The stories I have created.


And make room

for what is yet to come.





that everything


and that it is all

going to be


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  1. Thank you for saying exactly what I needed to hear today.

  2. Awesome. Was thinking similar thoughts earlier in the week…

  3. Such eloquence and purity in this post, Camille. I simply couldn’t love it more

  4. Reblogged this on MONSTERMORALES and commented:
    This is incredibly poignant to me. I don’t know why exactly; I don’t try to put material things above the actual memory surrounding it… I don’t even know if I even have possessions. I just have stuff.

  5. Wow. Really made me think. thank you for that!

  6. This post is so poignant and beautifully written.

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  9. This post was so beautiful! I wish everyone, including myself, could be more like this!

  10. Kristin Gracie Says: October 16, 2013 at 2:34 pm

    Beautiful and true! Thank you…

  11. This is lovely and made me think of this poem:

    “The thief left it behind:
    the moon
    at my window.”